Thursday, April 7, 2011

The lost and found

I was lost for so long.

I didn't know what I was doing or what I wanted. I didn't know what to do. I was married but I felt like something was missing. I loved my wife and we were good together but over the years the strength of the bonds began to wear away. Then one day the string snapped and it was over.

I walked away from 10 years of marriage and I was more lost then I had ever been. I looked and I thought I found what I wanted. I found someone that I could love whole heartedly and I did.

I fought for something but I don't know what. I fought so hard and I don't know why. I won her over and for a while I thought I was happy. Everything that I wanted was right there in front of me in my arms.

I missed the forest for the trees.

I missed the biggest red flag there was. I was so concerned with what I wanted that I didn't accept that I was one a two way road. I was in the wrong lane. In a blink of an eye she was gone and I was left broken.

The brokenness was whole but began to fade.

In time a friend walked into my life to take my hand and help me lift my head back up.

She took the time to get to know me and what I needed from life.

During the process she realized that she had another friend who, like me, was desperately in need of someone to sing to. She placed my hand in the hand of Teresa...

At the moment our eyes met my heart just melted. She was the one that I had been searching for. I was the one that she had been searching for. We learned in very short order that she could complete me and I could complete her. It was like we were two lost souls searching for each other in the darkness.

Darkness never lasts. The dawn came and because of Autumn, Teresa was able to find my hand to hold.

The brilliance of our love for each other can never again be over taken by the darkness of the long night.

We have found each other and are now creating the kind of epic love that people a dream about. I open my eyes all day long and, this isn't a dream.

All my life I've wanted to fall in love and have what I give returned to me with the same passion and enthusiasm. I have failed every time for various reasons. Bad timing, square peg/round hole, distance, circumstances... you get the picture. Whatever the reason I have not been able to create and epic love in 38 years.

I've never given up though. I've fought through so much and I found Teresa Craine and I no longer looking because....

Because she is the one.

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